That is what life is about to me….life, love, and happiness. In order for you to feel like you are worth something, it should not matter how large your pocketbook is. However, my problem is that this entire world revolves around money. My honey and I have been together for over 3 years now, and if something could have gone wrong….it has. That doesn’t matter though because, as long as we have each other, we are completely happy. Yes, it would be nice to be able to go out and fill up the bottom of the Christmas tree that we just haven’t been in the spirit to put up, but it is wonderful to be able to look at one another and know that tomorrow may be a better day. We pull ourselves out of every rut we run into, but it seems like that rut always has something to do with money or bills.

I wouldn’t change anything about our lives though….and that sounds completely insane….but..it is the truth. We can only do what we are doing and put our hearts and souls into and working our way to where we would be financially comfortable in order to make our kids happy. Our kids deserves to feel love and happiness along with having a good life. It is sort of a contradiction in terms since we are fine with the little money we have coming in that we would want our kids to have it all. However, shouldn’t they be as happy and loved as we are without the financial and material things that seems to mold our children in this era? You would think so, but I am here to tell you that no matter what you do there is always another kid at school that has better things than our kids do.

The sad part about the school scene is that our kids always want what the more fortunate kids have. For example, my daughter had lost her Christmas gift card from last year that my dad had sent for her. About a month ago, she found it, and we went to Wal-Mart to get groceries, and she wanted to shop too. She went to the girl’s section and picked out this really cute light green coat for the winter. She absolutely adored it, and she was really proud that she had bought something that she could wear all the time and actually use. The next day or so, she goes to school, and her friend had given her this ugly brown coat with the fur around the hood. The sleeves on this coat were too long for my petite little girl, yet she found it to be “cooler” than the jacket she had just bought for herself.

It frustrated me, and it makes me despise that darn brown coat. I just want to make it disappear! I tell her I hate it, and I ask myself, “Why are you saying this to your 11 year old daughter?” I just do not understand why it is a fashion show every single time she leaves the house to go to school. She gets upset at me because I have such a poor opinion of the coat, but it is not the coat that she was so proud of buying for herself and not something I would have ever let her purchase. I cannot pry it off of her nor talk her into giving it back to her friend. What is a mother to do in this situation…just stay out of it?

I have kinda strayed off the subject a bit….but life, love, and happiness is different for other people; and each person views these three feelings and experiences differently. I do not think that they have to be elements of money and material gain. I think it is a matter of human nature, and I am sure that as long as we all have each other that life will go on no matter what. With money or without money….we will survive and you will too.

The other day, my oldest daughter asks me if she can get an account with Myspace. She is only 11, and the thought of her being there is absolutely haunting for me. There are so many child predators, and Shy is so naive when it comes to chatting online. I just can’t let go of the umbilical cord, I guess, but she is my baby girl. What would you do if you were in my place, or what have you done if your children have asked you to have a Myspace? I could use all the advice I could get on the matter though. I want to let her express herself, but I don’t want her to have a profile on that site to do it. I feel like a hypocrite because I have a profile on Myspace, and Mike has one too. If I can protect her and keep her from harm, that is my job…so why is this haunting me so badly?

I have many shows that I enjoy watching on television, and I have to tell you that some of them really touch my heart.  I am an emotional person, and some of these t.v. programs bring tears to my eyes and make me feel like I am there with them in every crisis, break up, and whatever else happens.  Some of the shows I enjoy watching is Grey’s Anatomy, Private Practice, October Road, Lost (which I can’t wait for it to come back in 2008), Women’s Murder Club, House, Bones, Prison Break, Numbers, NCIS, and all of the CSI shows (Crime Scene Investigation, Miami, and New York).  When these shows are on, I have no need for a computer or a telephone (which is a miracle if you knew me lol).  Do you also enjoy any of these shows?  Do you have other shows that you think I might like?  Which of these shows are your favorite?  Can you relate to one person in each of your favorite shows?  I feel so close to all of these shows and find them all very intriguing.

I cannot say out of all of them that I would chose any one of them over the other, but I do find myself more inclined not to miss episodes of Grey’s and October Road.  On Grey’s, Christina is my hero.  She is so strong and determined in making her dreams come true, and when she had her breakdown at the end of last season I absolutely lost it right along with her.  With October Road, I find myself relating to Janet when it comes to not fitting in and being with the legend.  However, I also relate to Nick as to why he left Knight’s Ridge.  Both shows make me feel like I am part of their family, and that is the recipe for a wonderful sitcom.

Another series that I never miss is my CSI shows.  I love all the science and the problem solving, and in each of the shows I relate to at least one person in the lab.  On Miami, I relate with Cali.  She is such a tough woman, but she can be so vulnerable.  On New York, I find myself relating to Stella because she has been through so much in her journey to become a CSI, and on Crime Scene Investigation, I always felt close to Catherine because of her shady past and the ability to get out of the gutters to make a life for herself.  They are all wonderful shows.

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This semester is almost over, and I will tell you that I forgot how much work is involved in getting good grades in college. It is finals the next two weeks in my four classes that I am taking, and I tell you….I am burnt out LOL I will be glad to get a few weeks break before we start again on the 4th of January. This semester I took Math with Business Applications, Microcomputer Applications, Computer Information Systems, and Practical Writing. At midterm, I had straight A’s because it was all going so easy…an assignment here and there. It seems like the teachers kind of piddled around the first 8 weeks, and the second 8 weeks they realized we were behind; then it was all over but the crying. Boy, have I cried a lot LOL. With that said, I better get back to work Thanks for reading….feel free to leave a comment.

Motivation is a huge part of being successful, and I try my hardest to be as motivated as possible. However, sometimes it is quite trial some to wake up and go directly into overdrive. Does that make any sense? I am a true insomniac, and I have suffered a bit with depression the past couple of week (finals are coming up at college and just feel down). Late hours and motivation to get up to start your day just do not go hand-in-hand, and every single time I get going on a good schedule, I mess it up. I started this blog to get my foot in the door, but I just cannot seem to get the traffic that I am looking for. The same goes for my forum. It can be a great thing, and I know it can. How do you get your foot in the door in order to be as motivated as everyone else is or more?

My questions for you are……..How do I get motivated again? What advice would you give to a friend that asks you to help them get motivated?